Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Bitten, Scratched, and Banged Up: The Closest I've Come To Dying


     While many people I have met are completely convinced that at some point in my life I must have walked under a latter while breaking mirrors with my open umbrella in doors, tipped over a salt shaker on Friday the 13th, or tread on a Native American’s pet dog’s burial ground, the truth is that throughout my entire life, I have remained extremely lucky when dealing with animals. Though I have suffered from countless bites, scratches, and assorted injuries, I have been fortunate enough to have never been stamped “cancelled”, let alone seriously injured. I’ve been hospitalized by a venomous snake, I’ve been submerged chest deep in alligator infested water, vaccinated by a brown recluse, and have been stabbed, bitten, and poisoned by countless other animals. And through it all, I’ve never come closer to death than the horse-back riding incident I’ve chosen to recount in this article. Though this piece does not actually include an animal “attack”, this was perhaps the only animal related incident I have experienced where I was literally within inches of death. Here’s how I remember every terrifying minute of it…

     It wasn’t cold, it was freezing. Winter was setting in and the temperature was dropping nearly as fast as the sun, which was now barely visible over the horizon, heavily obscured by the thick tree line directly behind the house. Sporting a pair of jeans and thick denim jacket, I stood on the front porch, arms crossed in my best Robert Redford impression. I had been suffering from a lot of anxiety related stress lately and I figured that perhaps the best thing to calm my rattled nerves would be a long horse-back ride. While never the type to don a Stetson, I had always enjoyed the cowboy vibe I got from riding horses. Growing up on John Wayne movies makes this inevitable, I suppose. The ground continued to swallow the sun, as if it were sinking in quick sand. The orange and gold lights that had filled the sky faded to a dull blue grey, and then plain grey. I had been waiting a while now as several of my siblings had each taken turns riding Penny, our five-year old quarter horse. We had only gotten her last Christmas, the year it snowed a solid six inches, and we were all keen to practice our riding skills.

     At last, one of my sisters walked her up to the porch and tied her off, wrapping one of the reigns around the top rail. I walked stiffly down the steps and around the horse, breathing deeply and rubbing my head as I tried hard to forget about the anxieties I had been battling for so long. I slid my left foot through the stirrup while grabbing ahold of the saddle horn. “Why does it have to be the left side of the horse when mounting?” I wondered to myself. “Who made that rule? And why does everyone obey it?”. “Was it the same guy who said women under the age of twenty-one shouldn’t cross their legs during dinner?”. “Does it bother the horse if I mount on the right side, and do horses even know the difference between right and left?” I thought, as I eased up and swung my right leg over the saddle. It took me a second to find the other stirrup with my boot. John Wayne had always made it look so easy. Taking both reigns in one hand, I began walking the horse out towards the three-hundred foot, gravel driveway. If I thought it was cold before, being elevated on horse-back, completely exposed to the chilling wind certainly didn’t do much to change my mind. It didn’t matter though because my mind was being occupied by nature, which was the entire point. We kept walking.

     Reaching the end of the driveway, I turned her off onto the grassy path that followed the gravel road nearly a quarter mile before reaching the asphalt paved public road. There were pastures occupied by cattle on each side, allowing for ten feet or so of grass between the pasture’s fence lines and the white gravel road. Continuing to walk her in the same direction, the fence along my left angled off at ninety degrees, just before we reached the first of three trailer houses that aligned the remaining road. This provided one with a little extra riding area, though I was careful to avoid veering off into someone’s yard. Forget whatever notions you may have concerning country hospitality. The people living in my neck of the woods are just as likely to call the police on you as say hello, assuming they don’t shoot you first. Keep in mind that this is the South, where water is only drunk after five o’clock and there are more shotguns than pretty women. I stayed very close to the road.

     Reaching the end of the road, I turned Penny around and stared back towards my house, which I could now barely make out through the imposing darkness. I don’t remember what caused me to decide on my next course of action. Perhaps I wanted an adrenaline rush. But more than likely, I had just always wanted to try this and now was as good a time as any. You see, I had never galloped a horse before. I had walked one, cantered, trotted, and even loped on a horse, but never once had I ridden one at full gallop. Crossing over to the left side of the road, which would have been the right side across the road from me on the way up, I took a deep breath. Before I even knew it, I quickly tapped the horse’s flanks with my boot heels and yelled “ha!” just the way Robert Redford would have done it. Penny exploded. She started off fast, much faster than I had anticipated and with each pounding step she quickened the pace. Within five seconds we must have been totaling forty miles per hour. Just as we were nearing the last house on the way back, my right foot slipped from the stirrup. Terror struck and panic began to swell up inside me as I flailed my foot around trying to find the lost stirrup, all the while, the horse began racing off course, veering across the road straight through a neighbor’s yard. Holding on to the saddle horn with my left, I grabbed ahold of the stirrup with my right and managed to slide it back over my foot. To this day, I am still unsure whether or not that saved my life or nearly ended it. Though my feet were now both in their propper place, we were still racing wildly off course. I thought for sure we would crash into the pasture fence. We never made it that far.
 
     The moment I secured the stirrup, I raised my body back to its vertical position and looked forward. I will never forget what happened next. There was what sounded like a sonic crack in both ears as the whole world before me flashed into a bright yellow wall. I had just galloped my horse forty miles per hour into a trio of parallel guidelines anchoring a telephone pole into the neighbor’s yard. For the next second, though it actually seemed like three or four, I felt the strangest sensation: no sensation at all. I felt nothing. I heard nothing. I saw nothing but blackness as the yellow flash disappeared as quickly as it appeared. Looking back on this moment, I do believe I might very well have been unconscious. The next thirty seconds however, woke me up in a hurry and remain the scariest moment of my life to date. I hit the ground chest first at forty miles per hour, my right foot still caught in the stirrup. I vividly remember actually bouncing off the ground like a tennis ball upon impact. The horse screamed exactly as they do in ancient battle movies just before they die, actually flipping in a complete circle through the air over me, while my foot was still caught in the stirrup. Because I hit the ground chest first with one foot in the stirrup, and the horse landed further from the wires than I did, this means that she actually twisted through the air about two feet over my body and landed about twelve inches away from my head. Strangely, as I recovered consciousness upon impact, I was actually unaware of how serious the situation was. Noticing a strange powdery substance in my mouth, I pulled myself up on hands and knees and looked forward to see Penny flailing on her back, covered in blood. I tried to stand. With one step I fell back down in agonizing pain, hitting the ground next to Penny, who had managed by this point to roll over. She stood and staggered, taking three steps in my direction, then collapsed. I was lying prone, nearly unable to move. She stood again, taking several more steps towards me, and collapsed again. I realized that she was about to walk right over me and I began clawing at the dirt, desperately trying to move out of her way. But I couldn’t. She stood back up and stepped right over me, her legs wobbling uncontrollably as if she were a new born foal. Her hoof brushed my face as I rolled over to avoid being stepped on. She staggered, and I began screaming for help as I relentlessly fought to stay out from under her. I looked towards the nearest trailer as I screamed “Is anyone there!? Help me!” But no one emerged. As Penny continued to stagger forward, I managed to roll out from under her and after several additional seconds, she had stabilized somewhat and I had managed to sit up. Suddenly I heard voices screaming my name, each one louder than the one before. Thank the Lord, my sister had been sitting on the porch swing and had heard the crash of the guidelines and the wailing of the horse! Somehow my brother made it there too, the both of them running on foot as fast as they could. Showing enough good sense to reserve all questions for after the tour, they helped me up to my feet. Completely unable to walk, they helped me up over the saddle, where I laid horizontally the entire way back.
 
     Sprawled out across the couch, there was very little I could do. Though the pain in my chest was severe and the entire length of my rib cage had begun turning a lovely black and blue, I concluded that nothing crucial was broken or ruptured. I was not coughing blood and no bones appeared to be cleanly broken. I had severely chipped two or three teeth though, which is what had caused the powdery sensation in my mouth. I knew that Penny was likely in more trouble than I was. After all, that wasn’t my blood I had seen. As it turns out, she had her neck cleanly punctured within an inch of her carotid artery. The cavity in her neck was filled with blood and there was a hole in the side of her neck as perfectly round as if she had been attacked by a giant hole-punch. I have looked over the area of the crash multiple times since the incident but have never found any object that could have made an injury like that. To this day I have no idea what punctured her neck. Luckily, we both survived the incident and are, even to this day, quite healthy. Interestingly, Penny now only grows white hair in the location of the healed neck wound. Even more interesting though are the questions raised and answered after a thorough inspection of the crash site.

     As it turns out, the bright yellow flash was a wide, plastic yellow lining on the top two wires. It seemed to be right in front of my face at the time of the flash. However, if the wires had hit me directly in the face it more than likely would have killed me as well as knocked me directly backwards rather than forwards over the wire, where I actually landed. Perhaps I had gone just under the top wires but had caught the bottom one. Maybe the horse’s legs had caught the bottom strand and her neck had caught the top two. Perhaps the top strands had caught the saddle horn, still flashing yellow in front of me as we were flipped over them. Who knows? The ground surrounding the guidelines was covered in a very thick layer of soft dirt, which more than likely saved my life. Had it been gravel or even hard earth, I would very likely have suffered from broken ribs and possibly even ruptured or punctured organs. What I find most interesting about the entire incident though, was the way my foot was caught in the stirrup. This had directly controlled the manner in which I landed. I had hit the ground on the left side of my chest while being swung by my trapped leg in a downward, diagonal arch going left to right. Had I failed to find the stirrup the instant before the crash, there is no guarantee that I wouldn’t have landed on my head and broken my neck. Perhaps it even kept me from landing underneath the horse, which would also surely have killed me. The little details, it seems, are always the most important.

          Looking back on the incident, it’s hard to find anything I did right. I was an emotionally taxed, un-experienced rider trying to gallop a horse for the first time in my life, at night. Does the situation really warrant further investigation? I clearly made one mistake after another and they very nearly proved to be my last. One positive outcome did come from that experience though. I completely forgot about my anxiety for the next few days! Perhaps there is a market in this…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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